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[Monday, July 6th, 2009 @ 11:35am] |
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Sclub7 - Reach for the Stars (in my head b/c I saw that saying on a coffee mug) |
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Oh my Effin' GAWD.
Two more sleeps and then I'm off to Europe! London -> Paris - > Brussels - > Amsterdam - > Berlin -> Warsaw - > Krakow -> Prague -> Munich
Right now, its more nervous than excited. But as soon as I'm on that plane... BAM, I will not be able to wait. I'm going shopping with my dad today for a bunch of things... should be interesting.
Leaving SO soon!
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| ARRRRGH! |
[Tuesday, June 16th, 2009 @ 6:04pm] |
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+ 50 bucks to use a travel agent to book trains.
+ 1 nincompoop of a travel agent
- 2 train tickets because she booked one
x 3 because she was supposed to book us three dif. trains
x 100 frustration over the fact that I should have booked these myself.
=
An annoyed, frustrated, pissed off susan.
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| it gets harder and harder to breathe |
[Friday, June 12th, 2009 @ 2:33am] |
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maybe if i stay up really late... watch a lot of tv... this will get easier.
but probably not.
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| Think happy thoughts! |
[Monday, June 1st, 2009 @ 3:33pm] |
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Sarah McLachlan - Posession |
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I think the best compliment that has been given to me was not that I looked good in that dress, or that I was kind and patient, or that I was a great friend... but it was something that had never been said to me before.
It was that I was intriguing.
They said they couldn't quite figure me out and wanted to know more about what made me tick. I was interesting and intriguing. The person who said it probably didn't know that was the best compliment I had. It happened a few years ago and I still carry it with me. I've always been such an open book with my feelings and thoughts so when that person said that, it made me feel different, special even.
Silly, sure. Sweet, yup. Thoughtful, of course. Awesome -- okay now I'm getting egotistical. But Intriguing? I like it.
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| Fucking Celine Dion. |
[Saturday, May 30th, 2009 @ 10:37pm] |
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Allll byyy myyyseeelllfff.
All of my Toronto friends with the exception of Derek, Heather and Monica, SUCK.
For the past two saturdays I have had plans made with people beforehand. And for the past two saturdays I have been forgottan about. No calls. No nothing. Just me sitting at home, ready to go out and just fucking WAITING LIKE A PATHETIC LOSER by myself. So obviously I am incredibly ticked off and hurt.
To top it off, it's KEG Day and all my old hamilton friends are partying up in Guelph.
And I am dealing with Gordon and everything and this is the time where I actually NEED friends.
What the hell.
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| Oh, the truth hurts but lies worse |
[Monday, May 25th, 2009 @ 3:22pm] |
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I had a talk with my friend Geoff the other day about our mutual situations and he recommended this song to me. I've been listening to it a lot. Which is probably not healthy.
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| Feeling upset? There's a Taylor Swift song for that. |
[Friday, May 22nd, 2009 @ 11:48am] |
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Breathe - Taylor Swift |
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I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't breathe without you,
But I have to
Breathe without you,
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand.
And I can't breathe without you,
But I have to
Breathe without you,
But I have to.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand.
And I can't breathe without you,
But I have to
Breathe without you,
But I have to.
Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry
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| Was I 11 or 21 when I wrote that? |
[Wednesday, May 6th, 2009 @ 4:41pm] |
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Bruce Springsteen - The Wrestler |
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From a journal I kept in grade six:
How come all the boys I hate like me and all the boys I like don't like me!
I wish I could pat 11 year old me on the head and say, "Sorry sweetie - it doesn't really change."
hahaha
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| Looking to Happy Birthday Cards to cheer me up... |
[Tuesday, May 5th, 2009 @ 1:32am] |
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Lights - Drive my Soul |
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So I've been cleaning my room like a crazy person and I came across a bunch of birthday cards from my 17th birthday. Now I was a little hurt by the fact that none of my high school friends that were in the city came to my surprise party (except STEVE, I was SO glad he came!!) but looking at these cards, I just realize it's because we've grown apart. We're just not as close as we used to be. And while that saddens me, it also makes me glad to realize that at one point in time they would have been there in a second. Those were some good times.
( Some of the adorable, if not hilarious comments from those cards )
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| Forget the risk, take the fall. If it's what you want, it's worth it all. |
[Monday, May 4th, 2009 @ 8:04pm] |
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Sarah McLachlan - Witness |
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I think I'm going to use a real journal for awhile. My buddy Kevin (fabulously gay Kev) showed me this journal he kept, that was full of just random things... from notes to song lyrics to beer coasters, etc. It was pretty amazing. I want to copy him. I want to pose as an artsy, hip gal.
It will be the post-grad summer journal.
But don't you worry, oh five people that still read my LJ.... I'll still post here too.
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| "I have vision and the rest of the world wears bifocals" |
[Wednesday, April 29th, 2009 @ 1:01am] |
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I know I keep saying that it doesn't matter if I get a job next year or not... but someone I know just got an interview with the Toronto board (and she's a secondary teacher applying to elementary and she still got one!) and I am totally second guessing / judging myself already... fuck!
I was all fine and dandy to just figure it out as the time comes and now that the time is actually coming and I'm not good enough.... argh.
Must.get.confidence.
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| I think it's gonna be another long night |
[Monday, April 27th, 2009 @ 4:57pm] |
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Craig Cardiff - When People Go |
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I think it's more lonesome alone in Toronto than when I was spending those last few days in North Bay alone. Because when I was in NB alone, it was because everyone had gone home and I couldn't call anyone and when I'm in Toronto alone its because I don't have many friends I can call up and say "Hey, let's watch a movie" to.
http://www.myspace.com/craigcardiff
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| These memories are playing like a film without sound |
[Saturday, April 25th, 2009 @ 6:15pm] |
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Headley - For the Nights I Can't Remember |
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The Songs:
Any Kelly Clarkson
Africa - Karl Wolf
Paper Planes - M.I.A.
Whatever You Like - T.I.
Let it Rock - Lil' Wayne
Turn the Radio Up - Eric Carmen
So What - Pink
I'm on a Boat! - Andy Samburg
The Catchphrases (mostly coined by Waller):
"Hot Garbage"
"Missing my/your old glasses"
"Seeing Clearly".
"Oh yeah?"
"YEEEEEESH"
"How COOL would this be, gang?"
"1-2-3-CLAP!"
"Hellz Yeah"
"It's going to be LEGENDARY"
The Memories:
...hiking, bilbobaggins, Abel's Island, winter classics, turning lunch into a giant dance party, intense toboganning (pukey mcgee!), calling people by their last names in an exaggerated manner (Munnnndddy, Howwwwwse, Holmes, Waller, N. Simons, K-Mac) , formal fun - we clean up nice, disgusting formal food, Chris + Kim, Winter walks, jumping off scaffolding, Holmes and Howses!, The Wall, Kelly Clarkson sing-a-longs, Lit / shit-folio, Melissa's crush on Jarvis, including profs in section emails, Chris' food / peanuts, facebook and bumper stickers, John Long, Pew Pew!, DICE - "that'd be dice!", besties over testies, American Idol nights, James' man crush on Danny Gokey and Chris feeling intimidated by Kim's love for another Chris, Kim and Maurizo's love rage, being kicked out of a bar for the first time (for no good reason too!), movie nights, "Winston" our house ghost, HIMYIM!, poutine at Ivan's, the incredibly long line up for tim hortons, "small caf", BROWN LOUNGE!, Dodgeball tournement, "Living the dream" guy, DB stealing my camera, getting a new camera as a surprise from my parents, sex-in-the-city / degrassi / f & g marathons, party like a PJ-4, snowshoeing adventures, catapult chaos - court and I are amazing engineers!, Holmes and Howse flying machine, "See ya hummmba" in choir practice, forgetting about choir practice, Kev's scandalous emails, unrequited crushes, drunken texting, friends who are ALWAYS there for me, managing to avoid E-coli, Hep A and the mumps, James' impressions ("waaahh!" "How cool..."), Terry Fox runs, meeting the infamous Krackers, "Hello Earthlings", Make 10!, roommate bonding, the mediator between heather and melissa's fight club, sleepovers in Kim's bed, smothering our faces with sauce, becoming a crayon, NYC - parades, shopping, tours, fevers, and fun!, Jen's random comments, waiting in line for wings at the Moose, karaoke at the Fraser, Freaks and Geeks, Our love for Bill and Melissa's love for Nick, listening to all 3 HSM soundtracks on the ride home, "Doesn't it look like something a grade four would make" "...Or a grade two", hating on Straub, Maurizio's love for Parr, taking Napoleon on the bus to Kim's, dancing to "my song", rocking out with R. Graham's band, checking facebook every five minutes in Methods, watching wrestling with James and Maurizio and winning the Wrestlemania pool, the night we ended up at a country bar, attempts at study groups, playing in the snow, "WOAH We're almost there... WOAH looking for a job", and the nights I can never remember with the friends I'll never forget....
This has been one of the best years of my life. When I was struggling to find who I am and what I wanted, these people were there for me. They listened to me bitch, they struggled with BS assignments with me, they drank and laughed and shared so many memories. It has been a very INTENSE year, but I am a better person because of it. I am more independent and I have realized I have more strength in me than I ever thought. So thank you to those who have helped me get this far. I am a teacher.
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| A snapshot of Friday, last day of class.... |
[Sunday, April 19th, 2009 @ 2:48pm] |
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Headly - Old School |
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...photo montages, PJ love, roommate dinner, chicken parmigana, mimosas galore, attempt #3 at mojitos, pre-drink at a house party, very high school summer wonderful, terrifed of sparklers, ran around with no shoes, lost a frisebee, climbed a fence, found a frisbee, spilled a drink, blowdryer saviour, went to Cecils, shots of polar bears in test tubes, live band, tambourine playing, dancing on stages, got a drink bought, got into a text-war, stupid boys, went to the club, mad beats, danced on steps, danced with boys, feeling sexy, one more drink, still texting, left the bar, Pizza Pizza, met a Bear, wore a helmet, smacked James in the head, Maia's bra, walked home, chickened out, roommate love, zac efron, cellphone taken away, slept.
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| say goodnight |
[Thursday, April 9th, 2009 @ 2:46am] |
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imogen heap - goodnight and go |
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slighty drunk. lack of sleep. finished lit-folio.
Skipping beats,
Blushing cheeks.
I am... struggling..
Daydreaming,
Bed scenes in... the corner cafe
And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonic... tremblings
You get me every time.
Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you..
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.
Follow you home,
You've got your headphones on
And you're dancing
Got lucky;
Beautiful shot:
You're taking everything off
Watch the curtains wide open
And you're following the same routine;
Flicking through the TV, relaxed and reclining
And you think you're alone..
Oh, why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you,
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.
One of these days,
You'll miss your train,
And come stay with me...
{It's always say goodnight and go}
We'll have drinks,
And talk about things and,
Any excuse to stay awake with you...
You'll sleep here,
I'll sleep there,
But then the heating may be down again,
At my convenience...
We'd be good,
We'd be great together...
Go (sigh)
Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you,
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.
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